| Reminisce in silence. And the sounds will come to you. |
[May. 26th, 2007|09:51 pm] |
| [ | now feeling |
| |  sniff. | ] |
| [ | now playing |
| | Led Zeppelin - Achilles Last Stand | ] |
well.
I planned on getting back at this.
But.
I dunno. I look back at the year and realize how
quick time really is.
All those moments, good or bad or anything in between.
They just pass by so quickly and all we do is live
through them. We rarely actually enjoy them like we
should.
We just wake up. Do what we have to do. Go home. Rant
and make excuses about how today is shit. Then sleep.
Maybe it's time I did more instead of sitting on my ass
the whole afternoon watching series dvds with a big
pack of ruffles, some crunch, kit kat and a coke on
my table. (of course. That isnt a bad thing...)
well. whatever. I dont really know. Maybe I just dont have
the heart to go on anymore.
I'm happy of what I did with this. If it had meaning or
not, I don't really give a fuck. Like the moments in
our lives, we can't relive our emotions. Hell, I can
feel horny for a minute and feel like studying complex
molecular movements the next (um. ok. "minute" is way
off). And I'm glad that when I felt like I needed to
release, I had this. I had my friends, of course, but
we all know how sometimes we just. Have to deal in
different ways.
crap.
There's just so much that happened in the past year
and I don't know if anything can compare to it (maybe
two bacon mushroom melts...). But it was a ride and
there's another one coming up. I don't know how it'll
end but I don't care.
I'm gonna just give a fuck about how it goes.
Whether it's filled with things I never had before,
I'm ready (I think. :|). I got through one of the
craziest years in my life, why not have another go?
So. with this. hmm. I don't remember ever mentioning
a name on this thing in the year I made it. Why stop
now?
So.
To the people I knew before but don't have contact
much now, without whom I won't be where I am
now (right :D), thank you.
To the people I pissed off (c'mon. Don't be shy),
whatever might have happened, I want you all to
know that I have absolutely no anger against
anyone. I dont know if you feel the same way, but
I'm sorry.
To the people who hated me for something I mightve
done, or for being who I am, I don't blame you. I am
pretty much an ass. But. we can't change the world
can we?
To the people who, close or not, were a part of my life
just by being there (yes. you.), thank you very much.
No matter how little, you were there. And really.
That mattered (like it or not).
To the people I hurt., like I said, I don't have anything
against anyone. So if you think I'm against you now,
please. stop. I'm not.
To the people who (directly or indirectly) told me to shut
up. I'm sorry for being the arrogant, assertive,
indifferent ass that I am. You're someone I'm not and I'm
someone you're not. Maybe we can leave it at that and
just live.
To the people who I just didn't understand, I know
you'll agree with me never doing so. And there's nothing
I can do about it. But you were the ones who showed me
that there was more to life than just this and that.
There was a deeper meaning in everything. Maybe I can't
understand some things, but you made me understand that.
So. Thank you.
To my friends. For everything we've been through. Whatever
happens, I'll never forget. The good times, the bad times
the times that I can't explain at all. Thank you. You may
not know it, but through all the shit that I might've
went through, you were the ones who were there for me. And
I just hope that I was also there for you when you needed
the help. I could go on about the things I thank you for,
but it would fill up too much space as it is. But really.
Thanks for the amazing year. I can't stop anything changing
and I can only hope. But I know that the memories are always
here with me. Thank you. so much.
And to everyone else who might not have been able to
categorize themselves on the above groups, good rep or bad
rep, I just hope that if you were expecting something, I
delivered. And if you were just another passerby who noticed
thanks for doing so. And if you were one of those people who
hated me because of first impressions, maybe I feel the same
way too. Maybe we do need to act the way we really are.
And if you hate me for who I am, look above. not literally.
scroll up.:|
Well.
that's it I guess.
Maybe no one cares about what I do except me. But like
I said, I'm proud of it. I dont have to explain that.
Maybe some day I'll go back here and reminisce.
But right now.
I'm gonna go out and live.
right after I finish this plate of fries...
peace.
oh. and thanks for everyone who posted rants :D
kept me going. you know who you all are.
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there are millions of other lives each with a different story.
there are thousands of emotions that mix within our souls.
there are hundreds of words we are never able to say every day.
but there will always be one moment passing by with every single minute, every single second.
just one moment.
We can just let it go and pass the time like we usually do.
or we can take it. and turn it into infinity.
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-final post.-
maybe it's time we realize tomorrow can never be yesterday.
bye. :D |
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